Oh my goodness. I feel like I've been crazy-busy lately, and I know I'm a total slacker with my blog reading (so sorry everyone!!), and I feel like I sort of left you all with this vision of me as depressed, withering away in my bed all day, not eating.
That's usually me when I'm depressed.
But I was able to pull myself out of bed to go to work, and occasionally get to the gym (and almost fall off an elliptical machine.) And I was even able to eat a bit of food. Sort of. As much as Trevor would let me.
But now I'm prepping for having some lady friends over tomorrow night, so I only have a bit of time, but I wanted to let you know that Hey! I'm okay! The plan is to the see the doctor sometime in August, when I get another paycheck and can actually afford to see a doctor. I hope he'll be able to sort out my moods AND my stomach issues.
Also, WNG and I are finito. After he contacted me, we hung out once and it was great and comfortable. We were supposed to hang out a mere two days later, and at the last minute he canceled on me. He called later that night and I found out that oh – he's got a week of travel here and two travel weeks there and that's all within 5 WEEKS OF EACH OTHER so it's just clear that he has NO time for me right now. So. The plan is to sign up for eHarmony in August (again, when I get a paycheck and can afford it).
Even my mother thought it was a great idea, so I figure if my mom approves of online dating then there's no turning back and chickening out now.
It's interesting, though, how many women keep telling me, "awww, he could come around! Maybe you'll work out!" <-- I had that conversation with a coworker today. Love her, and she loves hearing about my dating life, but she said that and I just said something vague like, "Yeah, I guess we'll see. I'm not holding my breath haha" while thinking to myself, "Why would I stick with him? I deserve someone who will make time for me!"
In addition to sounding like a whiny, love-struck 17-year-old, I've been working on some professional growth things – attending classes and whatnot – so I'm hoping to move forward into a different career within the next year. Things are looking up, so I'm hoping this will all lift my mood a bit! Maybe even Trevor will be happier, too!
So, in short (but really, longer than intended) I'm feeling better and looking forward to just moving forward with everything. Here's hoping things continue movin' on up!
Oh, and my cashier at the liquor store today? McHottie. Also, McFlirtie. Must purchase more alcohol on Thursday evenings!!